Amanda Kloots Opens Up About “Tough” New Year’s Day After Nick Cordero’s Death: “I Can’t Forget About Last Year”

On Jan. 2, Amanda Kloots shared an emotional and honest post via her Instagram story about the difficulty of grieving her late husband Nick Cordero, who died of complications from COVID-19 at age 41.

After months of grieving, Kloots says she’s ready for therapy.

“New Years has been tough, extremely hard for me. I’ve cried more recently than in awhile,” the fitness instructor wrote. “I thought Christmas would be hard, this was worse. I think it’s because when the new year comes you want a clean slate or to forget about last year, esp 2020. But, I can’t forget about last year and will not be able to wipe that slate clean. I also think I am slightly scared of what can happen in a year, how much things can change. Lastly, I think everything I went through is finally catching up to me and I am finally ready to go to therapy to address the trauma.”

Cordero — an accomplished Broadway actor who starred in musicals such as Waitress, Bullets Over Broadway and A Bronx Tale — battled the coronavirus for months leading up to his death on July 5.

Throughout Cordero’s hospitalization, Kloots shared updates on her husband’s fight against the virus via social media.

In her post, the former Broadway dancer continued: “I share all of this as my continued honesty about grief and loss. How it ebbs and flows, changes a lot. How it hides and then finds you. How it’s a journey, not just a week. How it’s continued struggle even as I stay positive and active. How you can cry some days for two seconds or two hours. How it makes you feel so lonely and confused.”

“Being honest, acknowledging all of this instead of hiding it, has helped me. I hope it helps you.”

After serving as a guest host on CBS daytime talk show The Talk, Kloots officially joins the cast of co-hosts on Monday, alongside Carrie Ann Inaba, Sharon Osbourne, Sheryl Underwood and Elaine Welteroth.